Starburst, 2014

Statement

 

My work is concerned with bereavement: the tension between public and private grief, social customs and material culture of mourning, and objects as repositories of memory which both retain and transmit meaning. 

Unfixed

The Unfixed series emerged during a residency at the Bard Graduate Center Library researching early photography. Photography was tremendously popular because it promised its sitters an affordable means to ensure they wouldn’t be forgotten. In 1859, Oliver Wendell Holmes dubbed the daguerreotype “the mirror with a memory.” Forty years later, speaking of the Brownie camera, Kodak’s George Eastman declared that it "enables the fortunate possessor to go back by the light of his own fireside to scenes which would otherwise fade from memory and be lost.” Photographs, also known as “sun pictures," had an advantage over portrait painting beyond their affordability: each one was a direct capture of the real, unmediated by a painter’s interpretation. This is their indexical quality; like a death mask or a shadow, they have a physical connection to what they depict, and a kind of truth which results from the mechanics of the photographic process. The sun that bounced off the face of each sitter passed through a lens to darken a plate of glass, which in turn coaxed an image in the silver in the paper. It’s this that I scrape off into a jar.

When is a person forgotten? When their identity is disconnected from the photograph? If a loved one isn’t around to remember, when do those whose likenesses were captured cease to be? If the photograph is an index, then its fragmentation is a manipulation of something more direct than a mere symbol. It is dust, but not just any dust: rather, it is a physical trace of light on the subject's face rendered unreadable, but not–as yet–lost. It hovers between dissolution and dispersion, just this side of oblivion.

Coal Comforts

Coal Comforts is a concept bakery in which traditional baked goods are replaced with inedible versions made from coal ash. An evocative material, ash suggests both personal mortality (ashes to ashes, cremation) and communal annihilation by way of mass destruction. On the face of it, these baked goods look just like the real thing, but close inspection reveals that they are not what they seem. The familiar forms of cookies and cakes generally evoke fond memories, but the confounding of expectations about what is on offer at the “bakery” invites the viewer to question the nostalgic impulse itself. Nostalgia persuades us that what is familiar is innocuous, and in so doing masks a harmful reality—that our overindulgence in fossil fuels has been—and will be—our undoing.

Material Remains

Material Remains reimagines the Glass House of The Invisible Dog as a modern day globe de mariée, a decorative object which mingled souvenir and talisman to enshrine the memories, hopes, and dreams for a married couple. Preserved under glass, these keepsakes were treasured family artifacts passed on through generations. Using her mother’s wedding dress as well as other 20th-century gowns as raw material for sculpture, Spencer Merolla interrogates this commonplace contemporary heirloom. The wedding gown is both an artifact of an (inaccessible) past, and an object which, through its transference, acts as a conduit for hopes, expectations, and conformity to tradition.  Material Remains touches on the ideas of preservation, intention, loss, and remembrance, and explores the heirloom’s capacity to act as both gift and burden.

Funeral Clothes Project: After a Fashion

This series is made from clothing worn in mourning. Inspired by a personal experience with a dress I wore to my mother’s funeral and could never bring myself to put on again, I asked family and friends whether they too had clothing too tainted by association to wear. Slowly I began collecting clothes–sometimes decades old–that had languished unworn in the backs of closets, too distressing to wear and too sentimental to just throw away. Handling these testaments of loss is a powerful experience, as every garment comes with a story. Joining them together allows for the creation of a symbolic location in which otherwise private griefs become public and communal.

Hairwork: Mourning Art for Moderns

This series takes the Victorian women's practice of sentimental hairwork as its jumping-off point. For the Victorians, mourning was a very public act. Rather than a private emotion or an embarrassment, grief was a popular motif for the arts and fashion. What strikes modern sensibilities as mawkish and overly sentimental behavior was, at the time, considered proof of a person's sincerity and morality. Ornamental hairwork, painstakingly crafted from the hair of loved ones, was a fashion that insisted the wearer embodied these virtues. This work plays with the tension between sincerity and emotional performance, imagining a contemporary practice in which moderns might socially engage with death's physicality. The dissonance of the craft (when transposed onto the emotional and aesthetic landscape of our times) draws attention to the ever-shifting boundaries of permitted public display.

That the hair must be severed from the body to be worked in this fashion is a compelling aspect of the practice for me. With few exceptions, the provenance of antique hairwork is now unknown. As a result, it loses its essential quality of referring to a specific person, while still being a distinctively “personal” object. In a sense, the story of hairwork is a testament not of our capacity to remember our lost loved ones, but of our ultimate inability to hold onto them.